now she got more tall and a bit skinny;, i had worry when i adopted her be my daughter long time ago~ she was little girl, 8yo with nothing. she was so tiny and skinny, i was thought she can't growth up more.
when i saw her laugh n hug me so tight, remind me that time. we had a hard time. i went to around nice people who has great heart to gave me little money for her. yeah i was spent my time for her when i was 20s. because she has mental retardation, so she need special education to help her which is so expensive. and im not able to get a job yet, i only can saved my pennies. so so bad no one of my family understanding it. she always got bad bad things from people, even my grandma. yeah she lives with my grandma. and before i got 20years old i can't do anything of course. yah so i dont get money from my family tho.
because they felt sorry with me and wanted me to get a good study with out thinking of her. specially my dad, he dont agreed with my idea, he though its imposible! whyyyy.. !! she is my sister, loved her so much. how come we go to school to makes own brain smart but on front our eyes see there are has a gurl who doesn't know anything even a number 1 or to say " i want to eat" or dunno what is color of her hair tho. its should our duty, and she was born with out love from her parents, and she doesn'nt know what happened with her self. should be not fair when throw her as a shame!!!what da stupid, ah so disapointed, i blame that and i felt guilty of my family!
so i tried to do with be my best. i did everything for her. I took care of and put her into special schools. and the reason i entered to psychology college its just because of her. i studied Psychology of the Exceptional Child, and made a some researches of it. we spent days together, play, hang out, slept or took a bath. .((I still have our work is in the form puzzle 1500 piece! I was framed in a large frame!!)) she great with puzzle, n i made some theraphy for her. beside she got from her school. so amazed the goverment gave noticed with her, so we got a grants!! thanks god... so i can bought n n used our money to other good things for her. such as a healthy food, to go a doctor, buy a book, education toys, etc. she growth up n up, dance, and many awesome thing. the important thing is then she can helped her self, abble to count n read, and brave to speak eventho not clearly much, that i wanted. ummmm maybe we have spent 3 years old and i did as her foster parents, yeah i put my name as her mom!
and... at the end. my grandma suddenly took her back with stupid reason. (i dont want to shared here). and so shocked when my other cousin said i did everything to make her famous n makes my study getting a great. wtf! and the last i got really hurt when my cousin said she is a nothing and no worth it with all what we did. oh god..are you heard it! T T too many family against of me. i can't did anything, n my parents at opposite too. really they all made me down. so they forcibly brought her to keep away from me. i remember she yelled out my name and cry, "sista.. sista.. " i always cried out in many years when i remind of that. yah of course that made me got a bad relationship with all my fam. my prof who always help us said that its nothing to do i cant go to the judge or to police to save her because i do not have an authority custody. just be patient with time. yes right, n so i had not seen her for a while.
someday i got a chance to met her, she back to the hell life. i hug her n we cried out. no one can help us. so i told her, i will go to take her back if the devils is gone. i gave her many book to keep her get study. and again.. she yelled out my name when i said bye. it was really hurt time.
so i leave her,, my prof said dont worry they still her family n yours. and i can take her back someday or just to meet her in someday. thats made me strong! whatever you become ,i will hug u back~!
so now we enjoy our live. she grew up with my grandma in a village with cow n duck for her friends. and sure it was my great time to met her again! hope she always have a great day in there and keep healthy!
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